Weeknote 10
by Sunita
Summer has officially started around here. It’s supposed to be in the high 80s this weekend and the tomato plants have teeny tiny fruit coming. The basil and mint have been purchased and potted. The coriander gets to live out in the yard. The kale is growing like crazy. And I’m reading. Our city and county are opening up, but I doubt we’ll change much of what we’re doing, at least not until we see how people behave.
WORK
Our department recognition ceremony went off pretty well, as well as we could have hoped for. We had about 150 logins (we had 135 graduating majors, second majors, and minors) and except for an inevitable sound glitch which I eventually corrected, everything worked. It was exhausting and stressful but it’s done.
I also had a dissertation defense on Zoom, my first but probably not my last. I did a Skype defense last summer which I don’t remember being particularly draining, but 90 minutes of a Zoom defense is pretty close to 90 minutes of a Zoom class. For whatever reason, an all-video Zoom teaching/exam session is harder than any other format I’ve used. You get all the energy drain with much less of the adrenaline rush to offset it.
We are still waiting to hear what the fall is going to look like, but we are preparing for at best hybrid courses and at worst fully online courses. The administration is sending out individual and department surveys to find out what instructors need and what their competencies are. They promise to provide more comprehensive hardware, software, and instructional support than they did this spring, which is good. I’m just hoping that they can integrate Office 365 into Canvas, which they still haven’t done. And our lecture-capture software is not good. There are better options out there but I doubt we’ll get them unless we buy them ourselves.
One of my remaining administrative tasks is to coordinate the writing up of a memo for the incoming Director of Undergraduate Studies. My fellow acting-DUS and our undergraduate administrator have both been keeping notes on policies that need to be updated, improved, or changed, and now of course we have all the Corona-related stuff to think about. It shouldn’t be too bad and it will be useful, but I am seriously burned out on writing reports, answering surveys, and soliciting information to pass on to the higher-ups. I had yet another memo and spreadsheet to deal with this week, which necessitated lots of email exchanges. I feel as if I’ve spent the last year writing memos, which I guess I have. Five weeks to go.
One of our papers that had been under review since the winter was rejected this week. Reading between the lines, it sounds as if it wasn’t “big” enough for a flagship journal, which I can live with. On the upside, the reviews didn’t say it wasn’t sociology, which happened to another paper with a different coauthor, so we can at least send it to another sociology journal (for Reasons, we’ve given up on poli sci journals for this one). The revisions shouldn’t be too bad; there was no stereotypical Reviewer 2 criticism and the comments point to ways of making the paper better. The next attempt will be our fourth with this paper, which is not that unusual. As I tell my coauthor, a good friend who is at a top-ranked department AND in the National Academy of Sciences had a paper with an equally illustrious coauthor that was published on their eighth submission. We still have four rejections to go! I like this paper, it’s morphed from a note into a real article, and it deserves to be published. We’re not drawering it until we run out of options.
READING/WATCHING/LISTENING
We have been rewatching Detectorists on Hoopla. It’s such a warm, sweet, funny show, it’s like a hug in these times. But it turns out that while Hoopla has all three seasons, it doesn’t have every episode of every season. So we broke down and re-subscribed to Amazon Prime. After having had Prime since its introduction, we stopped it last fall and we haven’t really missed it until now. But when you’re stuck at home, watching evening TV becomes more frequent. There’s just not as much to talk about and catch up on when you spend all day together and don’t see much of other people or the world, especially when we’re not teaching. And especially when you’re trying not to rehash the news.
We also revisited an old movie that we remembered as a pleasant timepass: America’s Sweethearts with Julia Roberts, Catherine Zeta-Jones, John Cusack, and Billy Crystal. I’m not sure what we were smoking when we watched it in the past, but man, it did not hold up. The fat-shaming. The ethnic slurs (Alan Arkin as a fake Indian yogi and Hank Azaria doing another version of his Birdcage character). Unfunny penis-size, masturbation and dog-sniffing-crotch jokes. The plethora of unpleasant people whom the narrative mocks but also embraces. It was weird.
On a happier note, I read all the Murderbot novellas over the course of about ten days. They were most enjoyable. They are total popcorn but I can see revisiting them, just like Murderbot revisits The Rise and Fall of Sanctuary Moon (I so want that to be a real show, with hundreds of episodes). I’ll write up a proper review post soon, and in the meantime, it’s on to the novel.
PRODUCTIVITY/HOUSE STUFF
After the recognition ceremony was done, I spent the next few days making lists and taking stock of what I had to and wanted to get done in the next three months. Usually we’re cleaning up the house and getting ready to drive to California right now (this time last year we were already there). Without the cleaning and packing, driving days, and unpacking and setting up, we gain nearly three weeks on our schedule. I counted up the weeks and we have 14 weeks between Convocation and the beginning of the fall semester. 14 weeks! It feels unimaginably long, especially when we don’t move house. Of course, by mid-August I’ll be asking where all the time went, but right now I’m just gazing into the distance.
I’ve gone back to writing something like Morning Pages, but not necessarily every day and not necessarily in the mornings. I’ve been using my 750words account and trying to remember to write in it most days. One day it was feedback on a paper, another day it was lists and thoughts about planning the summer, and on another day it was pure venting. I like having the usage be varied, because one of the reasons I stopped with Morning Pages (aside from not always having morning time) was that I got tired of only emptying my brain in one way. I’m sure there are other ways, I just found myself going down the same mental roads over and over and didn’t really know how to break out. I think that it’s also the case that morning isn’t necessarily when I need to empty my mind. Sometimes it’s before or after lunch or after I’ve just done a bunch of work email and memos. Anyway, I’m going to try and keep this up.
I’m still writing longhand for notes and ideas too, though, which meant I got to clean out a couple of fountain pens and put them back into the rotation.
THIS WEEK
I’ll try and finish up everything I can on the departmental admin and student front and get the week planned out with some work of my own. I have two papers to work on with a coauthor and I need to figure out work to give an undergraduate who’ll be working with me on my own stuff this summer. And exercise. I have to force myself out of the house, which I haven’t been very good at for the last few weeks.
Thank you for continuing to post these, Sunita. I find them weirdly cheering, learning how younger and established folks grapple successfully with this terrible situation.
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You are most welcome! Weirdly cheering is a good description for how I feel about these too. Sometimes I have to force myself to get started but I always learn something from the process.
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No California at all this summer?
I remember seeing America’s Sweethearts in the theater with a group of friends because Julia Roberts + John Cusack was bound to be a good rom-com. When we left, everyone had enjoyed it, and everyone thought I was paying too much attention to the fat jokes/issues and the disregard for mental health. HEA in theory, but I left thinking that he’d dump her if she regained weight, and that they both needed therapy. It’s a Cusack movie I’ve never been tempted to rewatch.
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We might go out for a shortish trip (flying, argh) but that’s it. We have friends staying there at the moment, so it’s being taken care of. We’ve gone back and forth about driving but it just seems both too dicey and wrong given the circumstances. And once we get out there we’ll be about as constrained as we are here. Better hiking and walking and produce, but still mostly stay-at-home. We can always change our mind and pack up the car and the Corgis, but right now it seems better not to.
I agree that Cusack’s role was not one that inspired confidence in the HEA.
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I haven’t done much in May and already feel I’m running out of summer! We will be doing things online that can be online, though I think are hoping labs, etc. can be in person (no final announcement). I think it’s the plan that’s safest and most certain—students will know what to expect. I am kind of looking forward to the challenge of learning to teach online, but I really have to do it! No last-minute planning this year.
We now have to figure out what kind of re-opening might (or might not) make sense for our church—good way to get right down to working with our new priest who arrives on June 1.
There’s a little garden store on my corner that has successfully re-opened, with a socially-distanced line halfway up the block on weekends. I went down mid-week when I could see no lineup and got some herbs to plant, which was a satisfyingly normal summer chore. I’ve been enjoying long walks into new parts of my neighborhood (and not enjoying, but doing, time on the elliptical). And I’m wondering about what kinds of things will help give us the feeling of “vacation” and rest this summer even though we’re stuck at home. My neighbors with little kids bought trampolines, but what works for adults? My son should be in New Zealand right now. . . .
I find our gradual re-opening stressful, the way it was just before everything shut down, because you have to make a lot of choices for yourself about what is safe and sensible to do, rather than feeling that it’s obvious. But at least I trust that the decisions of public officials here are being made with care and regard to data.
I like your weeknotes, because they help normalize this weird time. And I guess we’d better get used to it.
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Our across-the-driveway neighbor’s young son has a trampoline and he’s in it all the time. It’s his getaway place in addition to being exercise. We put up a sun shade (outdoor tarp thing from REI) because our deck has southern exposure and is basically unusable without one on a hot afternoon, which is all of late spring to early fall. We also filled the deck with plants. Reclaiming that space has helped a lot, but I agree on not knowing what makes for a good staycation.
One mental exercise I do is to think about how we’d spend our time if we were in a rural/mountain place for the summer. Physical activity, reading, games, working around the property if it’s a cabin, etc. That’s what we used to do before long-distance travel became the norm. When I was a kid in India the entire extended family packed up and moved to our big hill station house, where we played with each other, read, went for walks, and ate communal meals. Once a week we went to the hotel restaurant for dinner out for a treat.
I’m really leaning toward the flipped classroom model, despite having side-eyed it for years. There is no way that instruction won’t have to be designed to accommodate students who wind up being fully online, especially for non-lab and performance courses. The trick for me is to think of interesting online instructional techniques, because the combination of reading and online lectures (even if the lectures are chopped up) makes for a heavy burden. It’s one thing for science and methods courses, where you’re basically exchange the lectures and problem set times, but my classes have more reading and tend to combine lectures and discussion (unless it’s a big intro course, where discussions are their own time slot). I have a couple of ideas, but I’m not going to think about it until we’re more like six weeks to when classes begin and we have more information.
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“I find our gradual re-opening stressful, the way it was just before everything shut down, because you have to make a lot of choices for yourself about what is safe and sensible to do, rather than feeling that it’s obvious.“
This so true! I’m feeling the same way.
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I agree that the gradual reopening is stressful. Our solution has been to keep doing what we’re doing. Unless it’s very clear that both the establishment and the customers are keeping to the rules, we’re not patronizing them. Our neighbor owns a popular restaurant and he said that the first couple of days of in-room dining were great, but over the weekend customers were much less observant of the rules. He was not happy. And you’ve all seen those photos of the idiots in Lake of the Ozarks. The odds for a second wave coming sooner rather than later seem depressingly high.
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Trampolines are a great idea. We will see if there is a deal going on at the store in our town this weekend.
I have continued doing Pages since we first started it all those years ago. On an average, I have written every day. I do make-up days and some days, I give up, given what is going on with my life.
I also started writing daily notes in my private LiveJournal after being inspired by your ones. I have been doing those since March 20. They are a grab bag of personal thoughts, writing, commentary on essays and poems and such, recipes, world issues, etc. etc. They are long, but I write them over the course of the day, as and when I think of something to write. They are helping me frame my days and make sense of our my experience.
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Keira, there’s a company here that delivers and sets up small trampolines—I’ve seen their van around the neighborhood, including at two of my neighbors. (It is obviously a VERY popular stay-home purchase). You might look online for something similar near you.
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Liz, that is a great idea. I’ll look into seeing if they deliver, because many small businesses are still shuttered for foot traffic.
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The trampoline my neighbor’s son has is on the smaller side, maybe 5-7 feet in diameter, and it has a high-walled net enclosing it along with a flap over the entrance. He’s around 8 now, and he’s had it for the last few years. Two kids can jump in in together, too.
I’m glad the notes idea is working for you! I think you said back in March that it’s worth trying to document these times, and I totally agree.
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Sunita, that is the perfect-sized and styled trampoline we are thinking of.
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